i feel like such a fuck up.

this sorority thing is taking up my entire life and i am loving it.

except tonight is the five month anniversary of my friendship with the cult at lehigh. and i forgot. and had dinner with some sisters instead. does this mean i really royally suck at being a friend? i hope not. i don't know anymore.

everything feels like its slipping away.

aids benefit concert at Phi Sig tonight, then late nights with DU, hoping my bro is there and NOT already drunk because if you haven't ever been around two jenkins' drunk at the same time, trust me you never want to.

going over to the theta house because i feel semi-safe there. and i've fucked everything else up already.