lizthebiz

Last rush ever. looking back, was it a good idea at the time? perhaps. have i gained things? definately. would i do it again? probably not.

why is it still so important to care what other people think of us? i left high school a nerdy kid, and in college the nerdy kid was covered up by the drunk asshole and the obnoxious loudmouth. and now i'm ready to shed the drunk asshole, but the obnoxious loudmouth and the nerdy kid are coming back. my little bookworm self needs OUT. i like to get drunk, that's for sure, but i like to read my book WAYYYYY more.

six thousand times more.

and its been officially over a year. more than that if you want to call it good. and then nate said "do you feel like there is something between us?" yes you idiot, of course i do, of course you do. you made the choice, i abided by it though it tortured me for longer than i'd like to remember. you made the choice, but it didn't change the facts. of course there is something between us. but you made a choice. and you have a girlfriend. and she isn't me. and she never will be. laughter. "no, no i don't."

the bitter and angry fat bitch is not my favorite.

the confident, funny, enjoyable bookworm. she's my favorite. she's mean but not malicious, and she's fun but not overbearing, she remembers things really well. she goes out of her way to make people feel bad. she doesn't look at her own feeling first. i like her. she's my favorite, but she's scared and she's afraid because she's in a society that doesn't like her, that wants the drinker, the fun planner, the loudmouth. so the bookworm hides, and she's not happy.

this new year, i don't want to hide anymore.

this might be the greatest summer of my life.

amazing things (not in order from best to worst):
- living in my own in west philly.
- winning an ipod for singing in CA...love song.
- Disneyland with old friends and new friends
- Knottsberry Farm...aka roller coasters
- Singing for EJ. Just...wow on that one.
- listening to the Dalai Lama
- weekends in the sketch.
- the beach day. with billy, kristy, scotch, brookery, zup, mom, and aunt linda.
- KPMG in my life.
- Amanda, Sindhu, Sarah, Mike, Jen, Maria, Jeremy and the Boys, the Illustrious Tom Callahan, Kate. Everyone. at. Work.
- Antolin Reunion '08. and katie winning the "Nikolas Antolin Worst Cousin of the Year Award"
- no more water bombs in a-town.
- dinner with Laurie
- spontaneous kung-fu panda imax with j. oles.

more adventures to come. but i'm so happy pretty much every single day.

in reston
for the next 3.5 months.
feel like crying.
so i'll clean.
holler at your girl.

You Are Broccoli Casserole Soda

Vegetarians taste better!

So I'm doing this thing, called Relay for Life to raise money to fund cancer research slash help out patients and stuff...so if you want to donate to my cause here is the website. i would super appreciate any help.

https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=128528&lis=1&kntae128528=7289F00B6C6B4835AAA9876F7407DD05&supId=122662508

You Are Fozzie Bear

"Wocka! Wocka!" You're the life of the party, and you love making people crack up. If only your routine didn't always bomb! You may find more groans than laughs, but always keep the jokes coming.

i'm happy. he was always my favorite

looks like pretty soon i'm going to be unbunked. so that is pretty sweet. and it makes me pretty happy.
it makes my roomate unhappy and that's not exactly a benefit its just a nice little perk.

i had an amazing dinner with jen forbes. ok i won't say anything and i'll try to be...

i've done nothing all day.

except dinner with jen forbes.

oh and keyboarding class.

damn seriously. ok no joke. no its not cool.

don't you love it when your roomate talks about you in gibberish? yeah i do too.

i feel like such a fuck up.

this sorority thing is taking up my entire life and i am loving it.

except tonight is the five month anniversary of my friendship with the cult at lehigh. and i forgot. and had dinner with some sisters instead. does this mean i really royally suck at being a friend? i hope not. i don't know anymore.

everything feels like its slipping away.

aids benefit concert at Phi Sig tonight, then late nights with DU, hoping my bro is there and NOT already drunk because if you haven't ever been around two jenkins' drunk at the same time, trust me you never want to.

going over to the theta house because i feel semi-safe there. and i've fucked everything else up already.

i have done so much work today it makes my face hurt. actually it just makes me tired. i'm very proud of myself though.

i read three chapters of econ, and did my homework for recitation tomorrow
i did my written theory homework because i'd already done my non-written theory homework
i went to the gym
i wrote out my reading schedule for econ and psych for the entire sememster, along with my exam schedule for econ, psych, and rocks for jocks.
i went to a theta dinner

my body feels like i'm going to explode.
for this week i still have a chapter each of econ and psch.
i probably will get more reading for enviromental geology
and homework for theory

i have to make a kite for theta for wednesday
i also have to memorize the names and spellings of all the sisters on the composite
and read all about our history. and know it cuz i'm going to get quizzed on it.

part of me keeps wanting to im josh, its a good thing i don't cave in to that part of me.

i'm extrodinarily excited for feb. 3! i told val today that i was going to go and if theta had a problem with it they were goign to have to deal with it but she said that would be fine so i'm super excited. because not only do i get to go and visit lexie, and see jack's house, but i don't have to worry about getting in trouble with my sorority so that's an added bonus.

i also got on the deans list last sememster. so go me.

i'm goign to go pass out now. actually maybe i'll go visit the boys and make my kite. or i'll start some theta stuff.